We’ve all been there. That hopeless torment ripping us to shreds inside, when desperation screams out: “Help God!”
But help doesn’t show up. It doesn’t come. And whatever it is you have endured has already happened, and it is too late. God still said NO.
That mom didn’t want that cancer. That brother didn’t want to get killed in that car wreck, while the drunk driver walked away from the accident. That child just wanted his parents to stay together. That single parent wants to pay bills and buy food. That old man on disability wants to be able to work and feel useful, have a purpose in life.
But every where you turn, you feel God is telling you NO.
It hurts to feel rejected. As if the world isn’t bad enough as is, and then it seems as if God himself has turned his back on us and left us alone to face the silent pain.
I could spend a day wallowing in the news that shadows life with grave uncertainties if I stayed glued to the television all day. I could read a horror story and then at bed time get chills and goose bumps from shadows racing through my blinds. I could think that sharks grow legs and can walk out from the ocean just to eat me too when I go for long walks.
But those are all lies. Horrors and fears play a deadly game of chess with our emotions if we let them.
Jesus said: Fear not. And if that wasn’t enough, he said it 365 times in the Bible.
For every NO I felt God screamed at me, for every NO you think you are hearing when an answer or provision was needed yesterday, was really not a NO.
It was really a: “Do you trust me?”
When you are suffering and in pain, God cares about that too. He cares you are hurting. He cares you can’t pay your bills, or afford the healthcare to buy that medicine to stay alive a little longer. He sees everything.
What you are going through does not make you less of a person.
The devil will have us believe we are only worthy of pain and not worthy of grace. His lies will make you think less of yourself than God really sees you. But God asks: “Do you trust me?”
There will never be an emotion or hope behind a human that God will never put into an ambition for deliverance. The same God who gives you redemption, is the same God who showers you with provision and healing.
So regardless of what you are going through, rest assured God sees you. He may not have showed up yesterday, but that doesn’t mean he isn’t on his way. Jesus came to Mary and Martha after Lazarus was dead, all hope was gone…in their eyes.
But Jesus said, I will take this death and transform it into a victory. He raised Lazarus from the dead. And that my friends, is what he does. Trust him.